RIP

Ann C McCloskey

May 21st, 2008

Har De har har DA. April Fools.

So Happy B-Day to me!

17 Years and going!

And yet I just can't show it!

*Crossposted*

Less than a week ago, news was delivered to me via an aunt that my Grandmother, whom I love with all my heart and sole, has a vagrant of liver cancer stuck to her lung. Effectively, it's lung cancer that was originally supposed to be Liver Cancer. When I found out, My heart did skip a beat, but my face stayed the same as it was, emotionless and expressionless. My aunt went on to then begin trying to lecture me on what I should do, and while alot of what she said was right, I still wanted to ring her neck for some of the stuff she said. It was only that day that I had ever, for the first time in my life, wanted to yell at an aunt and tell her to get out of the house, it was the day I learned what My mom and Grandma had been saying all along, that this Family truly is falling apart in worse ways than imagined.

But the reason I'm scared now is not because my Grandmother now has Cancer of the Lung, because if it was just, and I repeat, JUST Lung Cancer, then I know by her own miracle way she'd get over it and get it treated. My grandmother (And really, my whole Family) is an anomaly when it comes to the American Health care and health knowledge. She has never gone to regular check-ups, does not have a regular doctor, and almost never takes time off for any reason. The only times she has gone to the hospital is for Childbirth and surgery. She's as stubborn as a Mule and as healthy as a Horse. She's gone through all her toes being broken, major lacerations on various bodyparts, and god knows what else with only counter-top meds and a bit of rest off the feet. This is why if it was just Cancer, it'd be almost no problem, because she would simply go in for it and get it fixed.

It's why she got checked for Cancer that worries me. Before we found out, she was brought in by a colleague who noticed her legs were swollen. Yesterday, I got a good look at her legs, and they are seriously Inflamed. She is now barely able to walk, and has trouble breathing when exerting herself. My mom had called me from work to ask me to keep an eye on her, because, being how stubborn she is, she always, always, ALWAYS, says shes fine, even when she's not. I asked my mom why, and she told me.

The only reason the doctors can surmise why her legs are swollen, is possibly because theres a fluid buildup, and if it gets to her heart, she could fall asleep, and never wake up...

The thought of that really, truly, and greatly frightens and terrifies me. I always believed my Grandmother would live to be in the Guinness book of world records for oldest living woman. Now, it only frightens me to think that Her healthy self has begun to deteriorate...



...and that no matter what I do, I just can't truly show my fear...

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